fucking dragonboat. i’m not scared of any of you guys anymore. i’m done with being taken advantage of. you guys don’t help this team out what so ever. i have nothing to hide. you guilt trip us by saying that you take out your own personal time to help us but if it really bothers you that much why don’t you just not show up? i’m tired of hearing insults and negative comments about what we do and how we do it. can you not tell that some of us are really not fit and that we need to build up step by step? we can’t go from running one lap to fucking running a mile. our bodies don’t work that way. i don’t care if that’s how you learned when you were younger but that is most def not how we learn. you wanna know the reason i don’t come to practice anymore? because i feel like i didn’t even deserve a fair answer to my question 5 months ago. why wasn’t i allowed to race my first last heat at TI huh? “because of the weight issues.” do not give me that bull shit. if there was bad weight issues, then why was it me out of everyone else that didn’t get to race? i come to practice more than half of the people on that boat does. i work harder than half of those people. i actually tried my best last year. and you put in people that i know that i can do better than? not saying that i’m the best out there but i worked my ass off last year to get on that boat. i agree with him, he’s right. we kids seriously just wanna have fun and i think that’s all that matters. it’s not about winning.. at long beach what happened? we weren’t stuck with you guys and we had a pretty good time. and we did pretty good in that race. so tell me what we did wrong? we have fun and tried our best and that’s seriously all that mattered. i’m done being taken advantage of because you know us too well.. i rather not know you at all. at this point, i don’t even care if i’m on boat one or not, i just wanna have a good time and for all i care, if i was on boat 3, i would be happy. just racing with my team is enough. it’s time i take a stand. i’m so done with this.